Starting Over

This is my first post, and I'm new to blogging, so please bear with me. Today I had my first medically managed weight loss appointment. This is the first of four total weight loss appointments that I will attend in the next 3 months in order to submit an authorization request to my insurance for rny surgery. Overall, the appointment went well, and I feel like I walked away with some tools, reinforcing what I already know, and now I'm ready to be on my best eating and exercising behavior for the next three months. The surgeon removed all of the saline in my lap band, and I'm starting to feel really hungry today for the first time in many years. I also was able to take my vitamins without splitting them in half and they didn't get stuck. Hopefully I'll get insurance approval in a few weeks for removal of the band. Of course, I'm getting anxious at the thought of having band removal while ultimately being denied rny surgery. I've taken a seat on the emotional rollercoaster earlier than I thought I would in this process.

Interestingly, today I learned that I'm two inches shorter thank I thought which means that my BMI is higher than I thought at 42. My insurance has a BMI requirement of >35 with comorbidities and >40 without. Since I have no comorbidities, I'm struggling with the idea of doing my best on this 3 month diet, but not going below a BMI of 40 which means I only have a 15lb window of weight that I can lose and still meet the BMI requirement.

I've started my food journey for the day, and I got some exercise by walking to and from the doctor's office this morning. I'm still trying to figure out when is it today and when is it tomorrow in terms of journaling. Since I work the night shift I'm often up at odd hours and I may go as many as 24 hours without sleep, so I'm trying to decide when I should start a new day in my food journal. I suppose that I'll count each new day as beginning once I wake up from whatever sleep I get during a 24 hour period.